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Humble Reflection

I have been cataloging the minutes in my day thinking through how I spend my time, as I did this I realized that many of the ways I spend my time involve the many “things” in my life. Accordingly, many of the things in my life to which I am inordinately attached involve recreation and leisurely engagements. These idols include my friends, music, movies, internet surfing and even sleep. I have become so attached to wasting time here and there, just a few minutes each day on these things, which add up to hours and become a crutch in my life. The way I know that something has become a shrine, replacing God, is when I find myself “needing” it searching for it and desiring it. Whenever any of these things becomes something I require, I become aware that it has taken on a new role in my life, no longer serving me, but rather I have entered into service to it. 
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